TEENAGED HAYSTACK
edgina:

Upside-Down Mushroom Room by Carsten Höller

edgina:

Upside-Down Mushroom Room by Carsten Höller

i’ve started to notice there is a SIGNIFICANT difference in my self esteem levels depending on what tv show i’m watching/how much tv im watching at all

I’ve been binge watching six feet under this week and of course claire is beautiful and has an amazing body. correspondingly, my body image has been plummeting

in contrast, when i was watching orange is the new black and fargo at the same time, or ru paul’s drag race, or for a while when i was just reading instead of watching tv, i felt like a backup dancer for gwen stefani a la hella good 24/7 

i guess i’m just saying, be conscious of this!! it is easy to brainwash yourself by staring at a certain body type for 4+ hours a day 

If you are female, expressing hatred for your own body is not just acceptable, it’s practically de rigeur. Failure to indulge in the requisite amount of self-flagellation – my thighs! my skin! my face! – isn’t just negligent, it’s unfeminine. Self-hatred is fundamental to how femininity is constructed, more fundamental than any of the more obvious external symbols (dress, make-up, shoes). What matters is not that you are beautiful, but you know your place in the beauty hierarchy (and since every woman ages, every woman’s place will eventually be somewhere at the bottom).

Young women are encouraged to bond over their dislike of excess body hair, surplus flesh and “uneven” skin. They are meant to do so in a jovial way, egged on by perky adverts informing them what “real women” do: worry about having underarms beautiful enough for a sleeveless top, celebrate curves with apologetic booty shakes and cackle ruefully over miserable Sex-and-the-City-style lunches of Ryvita and Dulcolax. It’s a gendered ritual; men get football and booze, women get control pants and detoxes. We are supposed, of course, to be grateful. Hey, you don’t have to be perfect! Just know you’re not perfect and act accordingly, with the appropriate levels of guilt and shame!

Fairy tale after fairy tale tells us that what matters is being beautiful “on the inside” but what does that really mean? It means submission, obedience and the suppression of one’s own desires. Don’t be haughty and proud. Clean the hearth. Kiss the frog. Love the beast. Suck it up when you’re replaced by a younger model. Sure, you may look fine, but you mustn’t feel fine. You mustn’t be vain. You mustn’t be angry. All fury and pain must be turned back on itself. That way you’ll be a real princess: silent, fragile and never threatening to challenge the status quo.

M: This week, I discovered a terrible Earth disease called ‘loneliness’.

O: Do many people on Earth suffer from this illness?

M: Oh yes, sir. And how they suffer.

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Jane Greer, Faith Domergue and Jane Russell 1947 (via)

vintagegal:

Jane Greer, Faith Domergue and Jane Russell 1947 (via)

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